redeconstruction

there comes a point at which a breakdown occurs. it is not inherently unstable, traumatic, beneficial, detrimental, or optional.....but it is inevitable and irrevocable. the manner in which one perceives and experiences life, other people, feelings, thoughts, and one's own self are altered in ways that may not have been possible or imaginable previously. the outcome of such a break is determined in large part by the ability of the individual to cope with, adapt to, and internalize the changes occurring. this necessitates a significant investiture of time and mental space. the original constitution of the individual's attributes (mental, emotional, spiritual when applicable) determine to a large degree the various stages and processes as well as time gone through in this evolution.

cacaphony.....

please
please, i beg the voices of the thoughts occupying my brain

you fearful whispers, you stern lectures, you empty hopes, you furious rage, you wordless anguish.

please be mercifully silent and allow me the peace and relief of numb sleep

things of long ago staying true in heart.........

midnight conversations

staring, entangled in unfathomable depths

of limpid blue orbs

captivated by soothing tones

within the cherished voice

i am swept into a hypnotic bubble

of warm blissful contentment

alternately hesitant and prolific

feelings thoughts sentences experiences

i am enveloped in a river of words

issued from a mind

beautiful and terrifying in its luminosity and razor edge

passing through lips

curious warm loving mischievous

smoothly pale skin

broken by points of darkness

simultaneously

cool and still

fiery and enticing

gestures touches caresses

simple delicate careful gentle

intertwining joining grasping

spontaneous complicated aggressive

combinations of actions and articulations

painting and ever evolving portrait

of you who leaves me

breathless

with every glance word touch

wanting

to know you still more

loving

who i know you now to be

the burning question

like a candle

flickering in the corners of my heart

how long i may bask

in the grace of your affection